Frustrations and noncompliance.

[sofiaviolet]

I still have the same sore throat/cough/congestion that I’ve been dealing with for-fucking-ever. Argh. I’ve been sleeping twelve hours a day and not getting any better.

And that sleep schedule makes it really fucking hard to take my meds twice a day like I’m supposed to. Wellbutrin makes it harder for me to fall asleep, so I don’t take it within a couple of hours of when I plan to go to bed. Then I ran out and ran into insurance problems. I did get a partial refill that will get me through Monday, by which time the insurance bullshit ought to be sorted.

So it’s been a shitty few days. I didn’t spend as much time with Cory as I might have otherwise, and I’ve been doing a whole lot of nothing. I did manage to get a Wordpress blog set up, and I did a crapload of behind-the-scenes stuff on all parts of my site (managed to fix the problem where trying to access sofiaviolet.com/foo without the trailing slash redirected to sofiaviolet.nfshost.com/foo/, and now I don’t have ten thousand files all called index.html), and I added little bits of stuff and fixed broken links at Auriel. Because that’s all I can accomplish when I feel blah. (I did a huge amount of the work on my site when I was depressed last year. I’d work until the wee hours, and then not get up for class. *headdesk*)

I set my alarm clock today. Got up three minutes before it went off. \o/ I’ll get up even earlier tomorrow, and on Monday I’ll be able to make it to class!

Originally published at The Love Letter Sessions. You can comment here or there.

Comments

[book-of-calm.livejournal.com]

Oh, Wellbutrin is a BITCH for sleep.

I think you need hardcore Dayquil or something.

[sofiaviolet]

Ahahaha, I am pretty sure that if I can get it over the counter, it won't help me sleep. Drowsiness is one side effect I'm all but guaranteed not to experience. My doc will prescribe me something if I want, but I kinda don't want. I function well enough on inadequate sleep and I try to structure my life so I get as much shuteye as I can.

[book-of-calm.livejournal.com]

Oh, oh, I should have said you needed the Dayquil for the oogy-ness.

For sleep help when it comes to the Wellbutrin, I've gotten a small dosage of sedative (um, the WB ups my anxiety also, so it's kind of a counteraffect thing), and also I sometimes use things like, you know, calming tea, or homeopathic things. What's really helpful is melatonin supplements, but you have to make sure you're getting the good kind.

[sofiaviolet]

Oh! And maybe, but I'm thinking it's a bacterial issue and I need antibiotics.

I fall asleep fine as long as I put at least two hours between pilltime and bedtime. Or, fine for me, which involves a lot of staring into the darkness and writing stories in my head. (If my insomnia was less productive, I'd hate it more. But it lets me work shit out in my head before I try and commit it to paper.)

I've taken melatonin before, to no effect. Also: valerian, massive amounts of Benadryl, Nyquil, etc. I had trouble sleeping even as a baby, so I've had a lifetime to adjust.