I get that. I haven't been on a date in a long time, like years. It has nothing to do with the sexual assault and everything to do with the way my last serious relationship melted down, but I love keeping my distance and I cling to those excuses too.
I don't have any general triggers either. I have triggers that directly relate to the incident--sounds, smells, a song that was playing at the time. You can't warn for those. I won't say what song it is because there are people on the internet who are assholes enough to use that against me, but yeah.
Most of the time when I'm triggered it's for stuff my parents did, though, not the assault, and again, it's not general or predictable. The scene in Heroes where we met Sylar's mom and he killed her put me on the ceiling, and it took me a long time to figure out why, because that scene, the one where she freaked out and told him he was evil and all, seemed just so freaking normal to me that I had to realise that it was not a normal childhood. And then after that I loved Sylar, where I had hated him before, but what can you do. He killed my mother. :)
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I don't have any general triggers either. I have triggers that directly relate to the incident--sounds, smells, a song that was playing at the time. You can't warn for those. I won't say what song it is because there are people on the internet who are assholes enough to use that against me, but yeah.
Most of the time when I'm triggered it's for stuff my parents did, though, not the assault, and again, it's not general or predictable. The scene in Heroes where we met Sylar's mom and he killed her put me on the ceiling, and it took me a long time to figure out why, because that scene, the one where she freaked out and told him he was evil and all, seemed just so freaking normal to me that I had to realise that it was not a normal childhood. And then after that I loved Sylar, where I had hated him before, but what can you do. He killed my mother. :)